Razor Saw

what’s the significance of the sentence i turned and saw my razor on the dresser?

from the novel hole in my life by jack gantos,p.199

Well since the razor is the first thing he saw the minute he looked at the dresser and nothing else, seems like he was looking to see just that, seems suicidal to me, hence the name of the novel “Hole In My Life”

cutting with Razor saw and Miter